Dec 31, 2009

Happy New Year! :)

My dear friends :)

Today is the last day of 2009.
Lets say farewell to all its difficulties leaving in our hearts only sunny and happy moments, no matter what was this year for every of us.
Lets say hello for coming 2010 year. I really hope next year will bring you something very-very special in personal life, in work, in every day and in every moment of time :)
Happy New Year and Merry Christmas to everyone! :)
I love you all :-)

Dec 30, 2009

[rat.ru] New life has began

Yeah!
I've finally transferred my beloved rat.ru to a new,payed,dedicated hosting.
Thanks to my friends I've chosen keyweb.de as a hosting provider.
This is already a week, when the site and forum up and running, this is already a week I've stopped old mail server and switched the forum back to sendmail (old school - forever! lol :) ). It's a very strange and somelike nostalgic feeling when you stop old software, that worked for you several years and start another one. I even felt a bit sorry for communigate server while stopping it:) Really good, but too expensive software, heh :)
This is the fist time when I worked with openvz software. I should mention that It's easy and convenient to install and tune it, the only thing the administrator must be aware of is how the kernel manages system resources, cause my greatest problem was "fork: unable to alloc memory" :) According to google, this is one of the most popular openvz issue, openvz manuals even mentions some ways to sort it out, but only thinking and reading additional documentation helps to solve it.
In common, it was too fast and somehow sudden transfer, but I should say It was successful. For the first time in the last half year, my favourite toy works as it should and my users are happy :)

mood: satisfied
music: Мельница "Ветер"

Nov 26, 2009

back to past or let me back to support

Not, really, that was the most fascinating time, full of fun, friendship in this company and it's pity that I fully realized this only after years I quitted. I miss all my friends I had when working there.
I see people leaving, I see new faces of people I'll never know, I sincerely happy when I can talk to people I'd been working with, now I even happy to talk to our customers :) I like going upstairs, looking and chatting to the people I worked in support with, joking, smiling, laughing, remembering :) Or do I just need to change something?
Yeah, you know, this is a feeling-in-one-moment. I'm a person who cant work with people anymore, but sometimes I need people around to be happy :) That's why right now I'm preparing training for supporters about linux kernel :-) I used to read trainings when working in support, and this is the only thing i can do now for them and make me remember the past times :). The only thing I feel I need to change now, is that I used just to talk, now I'm going to make audience talk to me, make suggestions, discuss topics. Will try to make fun for me and for them :)

mood: People, where are you?! :)
music: Doro Pecsh "In Freiheit Stribt Mein Herz"

Oct 20, 2009

"Botanic Gargen" or remembering of past summer.

A few days ago I've finally realized, that warm summer days are in a deep past, and even a dry and and colourful Autumn will not present us with it's beauty anymore.
Grey days and icy mornings will now lead to early winter.
So lets say farewell to summer of 2009. Sometimes It looked for me difficult and unfair, but in reality it brought real happiness and quiet.
Let me show you one day in Mosow Botanic Garden.
That were several days later after I was taken here for the first time.
I was so impressed by the it's nature, so here are some pics.


Botanic Garden is a very-very large park in the North Part of Moscow. You can spend here days walking along it's long roads and looking around to the old trees and pretty flowers.


The garden is full of small grades, some of them even decorated in it's own style. The below pics are from Japan Garden. Calm and green place, even despite of lots people walking and making noise around :)






music: Metallica "Turn the page"
mood: tired, but good :)

Oct 9, 2009

energy vampires

There're some people that make us really furious.
One of them -- make us doing something just for a pity.
They do not ask, no, but they look so poor, so unhappy and stress this so greatly that we do something they want us to do, cause we feel like we just must do this, cause we're happy and successful, in the same time when they're not.
Others -- trying to be our friends - kind and truthful. They know how we feel, they know our past, present and look like real friends. We cant even know that there is something they need from us. They're just waiting for a moment. A moment when they can hurt us especially painful. Making us angry, making us trying to defence something important for us.
This second category similar to the first one, with some difference: they're stronger, they pretend wishing only good, taking an offence when we fight for the privacy they're trying to hurt.
Really hate these people and do my best not to have them around me.
Sometimes it's getting to be a difficult task.

mood: angry
music: aria

Sep 30, 2009

Only heaven knows....

Seems we've been to heaven darling
Ah the sad wind blows
But I have lost my way my darling
Tell me how it goes
While the mist is rising darling
Ah the sad wind blows
Tell me how we met my darling
Tell me all you know

Well I am somewhat older darling
Ah the sad wind blows
And you are so much younger darling
That's the way it goes
And we looked so good together
Ah the sad wind blows
Out of all the summer flowers
I had picked the rose

Take me in your arms my darling
While the sad wind blows
Tell me that this pain will leave me
Tell me how it goes
Ah if this pain should ever leave me
Only heaven knows

(music and text by Joan Baez)

mood: empty....
music: Joan Baez

Sep 4, 2009

sea stone



Imagine a dark blue sea. Dark as a summer starless night. Deep as an endless black precipice.
Far-far away from sear shore there is a stone constantly washed by waves, it looks partly green, partly brown from the distance. Usually the stone is a place where fat sea birds dry their wings.
I'm not a very good swimmer (just afraid of deep water), but once a day I've finally reached the stone. I came out, that it's actually a group of a rather large stones, with one main peak that's seen from the sea shore.
I climbed to the stone and stood up. Looked around -- in front of me is just a endless water, back is a far earth :) Nice feeling of a unity with a almost wild nature, only shoals of fish and sea gulls are surfing around.
The stone itself should be especially described. It's not actually the stone, that are myriads of shells, one on one mixed up with different colours of seaweeds, the sea world is full of colours and it's a real wonder to see them all and to understand how different this world from the one we live in, how beautiful are all these small fishes, medusas, brits ...
Do you know what I needed to be completely happy? -- You, diving somewhere besides me and waterproof photo-camera (lol) to make pictures of the beauty around :)
So, there is a late hi from sunny and hot Bulgaria :) I lived there for the last two
weeks :)

Aug 15, 2009

photo sessions :)

Seems that I haven't updated my photos for a very long time. Will try to fix it.
Here are my very recent photos from Kolomenskoe garden. All pictures are click-able :)

Near the Moscow river:

On the canon:


The canon reminds me a phallic symbol :-D

From another rainy, but warm Moscow late evening. Some very nice place with lightened trees and benches. The quality is not good, cause it was late and rainy. I was completely wet after the photo session :)


mood: good :)
music: "Apocalyptica"

Aug 2, 2009

"moments of transition" (c)

"All of life can be broken down into moments of transition and moments of revelation... G'Quan wrote: "There is a darkness greater than the one we fight. It is the darkness of the soul that has lost its way. The war we fight is not against powers and principalities: it is against chaos and despair. Greater than the death of flesh is the death of hope, the death of dreams. Against this peril we can never surrender." The future is all around us, waiting in moments of transition to be born in moments of revelation. No one knows the shape of that future, or where it will take us. We know only that it is always born in pain." (c) G'Kar.

Back to life (c)

I'm getting back to the file.
The last few (since April) months were the hardest, the most awful in my life, when I didnt know who are am, what I'am doing here, what's my aim and what's the real fantasy and what's the lie...
Sometimes the Universe makes your dream come true, when this is your only wish, when you want and desperately need to be lied, but everything should be paid for, this is the law, this is how it should be, I know. Every pain you make to someone, is getting back to you and you should live with it until it makes you alive and until you takes it till the end. I agree to pay, cause now I've changed, I've understood something very-very special that makes be believe in future, in truthful universe, now I'm really know :) or at least I believe in it, dont you think that "faith manages" (c)?
Now, when the depression(or not depression? but smth I didnt like in myself, that prevented me from connecting with other people, from being myself) is leaving my broken world, I'm thinking of past, of people I've knew and who were (and still is!) most important for me, I'm feeling really sorry for leaving you alone, I've given too much time to my own problems and difficulties...
You know, I looked thought the pages in your blog and my heart started to beat more often when I saw the pictures of you and sweet little Elias. It has been being my favourite dream to see both of you, for past few years :) To hug Elias tenderly and to kiss his most attractive Father in the world :)
Can you probably send me some picture when you're together, that I can keep always with me? :)
Hope you still remember of me. :)
Kissing you tenderly and passionately, and hoping to hear from you :)

music: "Die Toten Hosen"
mood: I do not know yet... :) but thinking of You :)

May 4, 2009

"the answer is blowing in the wind..." (c)

This song plays in my head for last few days. Really wonderful lyrics, great meaning, every word is full of sense.
Let's listen it together? One more time...


Just thinking...

Looking on this, I see fields of superblock structures...
Am I getting crazy...? o_O


00000000 00 00 00 00 00 00 00 00 00 00 00 00 00 00 00 00 |................|
*
00010000 de 11 de 11 81 9d f2 d2 4c 53 49 20 20 20 20 20 |........LSI |
00010010 10 00 00 55 00 00 00 00 37 27 7c 30 37 27 90 54 |...U....7'|07'.T|
00010020 30 31 2e 30 30 2e 30 30 00 00 00 a7 37 29 b4 bf |01.00.00....7)..|
00010030 00 00 01 ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff |................|
00010040 ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff |................|
*
00010060 00 00 00 00 08 8b 19 e5 00 00 00 00 08 8a 79 f5 |..............y.|
00010070 00 ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff |................|
00010080 00 0f 00 0f 00 08 00 02 00 10 ff ff ff ff ff ff |................|
00010090 ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff |................|
*
000100c0 00 00 00 01 00 00 00 01 00 00 00 02 00 00 00 02 |................|
000100d0 00 00 00 04 00 00 00 02 00 00 00 06 00 00 00 12 |................|
000100e0 00 00 00 18 00 00 00 01 00 00 00 19 00 00 00 08 |................|
000100f0 ff ff ff ff 00 00 00 00 ff ff ff ff 00 00 00 00 |................|
00010100 ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff ff |................|
*
00010200



mood: "I want this device!" :)
music: "Angra"

Mar 19, 2009

[webhosting] who is the best?

This time came, that I cannot host rat.ru on the server where it currently lives anymore. Truly speaking, I knew this for a long time already, but now it's time to act.
My dear good far friend, I guess you know much more than me about hosting world, so can you please share your experience with me?
What I need:
Dedicated server (I guess) with at least 1 gb of RAM, it will run several web sites (3 or 4) and one huge forum (and this is the main problem). The forum runs under SMF system (it uses MySQL & PHP), if that matters. The forum has more than 4.000 unique visitors a day and makes ~1.5 GB bandwidth a day. And these numbers are growing... In the result it creates rather big load average.
Probably there will be mail and DNS servers on the machine.
Ideally, I'm ready to pay up to 100$ monthly for hosting.
I searched for hosting providers... I do not trust Russian onces much, so I guess I'll need some European hosting providers. I've found keyweb.de .
They have 'KM 9200 DC' machine for 49 Euro (http://www.keyweb.de/dedicated/index.shtml), which looks good for me.
Do you know anything about keyweb? Or can you suggest anything to me, for example hosting provider that you use? :)
Forgot to mention, I'd like to have the below setup:
Physical machines runs some Red Hat/Fedora with OpenVZ kernel, and OpenVZ runs a single virtual machine where all the sites and forum live.
You can ask why do I need OpenVZ? I'll explain. Currently rat.ru lives on OpenVZ virtual machine, so It'd we very easy to move to a new hosting -- just to transfer virtual machine to the system with OpenVZ, and I case we'll need to change hosting provider in future, I can just to move this virtual machine once again.

Feb 28, 2009

Last day of winter 2009


Music often makes me feel something very special, I can even say that it creates my mood. This happens today, I had to leave to buy some food and took mp3 player with me with the last album of russian folk (rock ?) group called "Мельница" ("The mill" in English). Their melodic music, magic voice of their vocalist and probably this warm weather stopped me from going home and made me go behind the railway road to the forest, to be alone, to listen this music to feel everything near me -- mild wind, temperature that reminds coming spring, to see dying snow to remember something that gone away long ago.
Now I just want to share my feelings. my thounghts with you, allow you to see, what I saw, to know what I felt that moments.
I didnt have camera with me, just phone, which camera is not very good :)
These are the places where I used to walk with my dog, when she was alive (she's gone in 2002), this forest is the last home of all my pets who're waiting for me on the other side of Rainbow Brige. As for my dog.. She left long ago, but today I so wished her to be with me, I hardly stopped myself from calling her by name :) when I walking in this forest I feel like she's walking somewhere near me ... :)
I put into playlist only one song, but this song (I do not know why! There is nothing special in it's lyric, just mood) made me so unusually happy, that I was going between the fields with the feeling that noone exists in the world near me, just these paces and my memories :)
mood: happy :)
music: Мельница "Волкодав"

Feb 23, 2009

Games in Linux

Spent most part of today's evening playing game via local network. Despite the game was too fast and active for me (I'd actually prefer turn-based games, when if I beat someone, noone beats me in the same time :-D ) and my partner was much more experienced than me in this game and did'nt allow me to win (he-he, I'll surely will find the way to revenge him :), I get pleasure spending the time in a such way. I know, I'm among of these people who can spend hours and days playing computers games :( I know this, and I usually do not allow myself to be the addict of an computer game. Thanks for my using Linux as a desktop OS, there is not much tempt for this and not many really good Linux games exists.
Anyway, my top favourite are:
1. TuxRacer - tuxracer.sourceforge.net/
2. SuperTux - http://supertux.lethargik.org
3. SuperTuxKart - http://supertuxkart.sourceforge.net
/* oh, no more 'tuxes', Astarta, no more! */
4. RatSpears
5. Wesnoth - www.wesnoth.org
6. Heroes 3 (Linux port :-) or via wine). Actually, it's almost the only reason for having windoze on my system, to play in heroes, version 5 can't be run on Linux :(
7. The game I've been playing today: BattleTanks - http://btanks.sourceforge.net .

Feb 19, 2009

Stupid mistakes

Hello, my far friend :)
Do you remember, we talked of funny mistakes, like when adding firewall rules, we forget to add own IP, to be able to access the system, like running 'reboot' command in the wrong terminal window?
So today, I've made the funniest the most stupid mistake I've ever done :)
I was adding some functionality to our program, that besides other things should remove certain directories. The names of these directories were partly hardcoded into array (like /etc/, /usr/lib/ ...), the last part of the directory name should be added later in code (forming names like /etc/OurCompamyName,/usr/lib/OurCompanyName and like ). Very easy task. The code was written, the program compiled, checked -- everything is working as expected, no problem. Then, I've made small changes in the program logic, recompiled and run it once again. The program run and looked like it was finished ok. Then I mentioned that the system behaves in rather strange way - it doesnt accept new connections via ssh, some commands do not work and complain for libraries... Can you imagine my wonder, when I discovered that /etc/, /usr/lib and some other directories no longer exist! :)))
I've simply forgotten to add the lines of code that add the last and the most important part to the directory names, that should be recursively deleted, so instead of removing /etc/OutCompanyName, the software removed /etc/ ...
Tomorrow, I'll have to reinstall the OS ...
For my luck it was the test system :)

mood: lol
music: Manticora

Feb 16, 2009

[Fedora10] KDE4.2 is out!

Congrats to everyone using Fedora10 &KDE!
FC has updated KDE just today, now we can enjoy 4.2 version.
I even noticed that a few my bugs were fixed, licq can now dock normally, hurray! That was really annoying bug for me.
konqueror doesn't fail browsing samba anymore, even more annoying bug :-)

Get more info here.

RH you're the best :)

mood: happy :-)
music: The mill

Feb 12, 2009

Ходячие пассатижи

или просто Эриш.
Самый наглый, самый шубутной, самый ласковый, самый грызущий...
Просто самый-самый:)
Когда он появился у меня, я поняла -- Ландер вернулся. Именно так... _Они_ возвращаются, может немного другими, но с первого дня ведут себя как будто все окружающее пространство прекрасно знают, как будто тут уже были. Эриш первый крыс и единственный, кому позволено гулять по всей квартире, попрошайничать на кухне,переворачивать мусорное ведро, прыгать на колени, подлезать под руку, требуя ласки, - это зверь, для которого человек это все.
За это ему и позволено все, абсолютно все :)


Jan 9, 2009

Fedora 10 или "Пилите, Шура, пилите"(с).

Доставила она мне свою долю маленьких радостей :)
Фрустрируют некоторые особенности в ней, откровенно говоря. Удивило отсутствие xorg.conf по умолчанию, новый метод графической загрузки по началу напугал - сине-белая полоса внизу на черном фоне, я аж решила, что с графикой какие-то беды :) Нет, ничего, так и задумано:) в ставшем уже родным /etc/sysconfig/init отсутствует привычный "GRAPHICAL=", так что этот графический уж0c пришлось выключать убираением rhgb из параметров ядра.
xine при запуске радостно упал в кору. o_O Ну что-ж, бывает, не удалось ему подружиться с pulseaudio, благо, запуск xine'а с alsa проблему решает.
На xmms2 (точнее его графический фронтент) лучше даже не смотреть, работать-то оно работает, но выглядит уж больно страшно.
Несомненно порадовало наличие 64-битного флеш плагина для firefox. Работает, сразу, без каких-либо нареканий.
Окончательно убрали мой любимый kuickshow :( Замена нашлась -- после соответствующей настройки Gwenview начинает откликаться на привычные хоткеи.
kde4 уже на пути к состоянию, которое можно назвать "работает", периодчисески что-то падает, но так редко, что этого можно не замечать.
Огорчила samba, в консоле все монтируется отлично, файлы на удаленной шаре доступны, но ... если браузить удаленную машину в konqueror/dolphin, то нам мило сообщают, что smb <что-то там> died unexpectedly :)
Так что, по первым ощущениям, федоре 10 -- твердая тройка :)

Jan 7, 2009

This is not a software problem!

To start a brave fight with the NY loneliness, I've decided to upgrade my old FC7 to the most recent 10-th version today and as a experienced Linux user, my first step was to backup everything useful I have -- data, configuration files, that were written by myself to avoid re-reading tons of documentations once again. That's always the good idea to make a backup before SW changes :)
In brief, my setup is like the following: 2 HD (one 200 GB IDE, second 500 GB SATA) attached to internal controller handled by pata_amd and sata_nv driver each. IDE HD contains mainly Windows and some data, SATA -- Linux and much data (music, video and etc), so my goal was to backup two partitions on the SATA drive with / and /home, just in case I'd forget smth and need to retrieve old data.
To make things clear, I'm working for a software company that produces a proprietary software for backup, so I used our software to achieve my goal. Run backup and left for a while. When I came back, I've seen a nice picture: completely stuck system with blinking num lock. kernel panic, I guessed:) Rebooted, set proper printk level and start backup one more in a clean shell (w/o involving X-server), haha, that's what I've seen a while later:


tried to change sata port the drive is attached to, play with BIOS options, driver parameters with no success :) Reading this with dd produces the same problem. For my luck I have silicon 3114 controller on the m/b, but in tries to set RAID mode by default, that makes me think that it could erase data on the attached hard drive, which is completely not what I want...
I currently see several options:
One is to purchase one more HD (anyway I do not have enough space to store all the data) and attach it to Silicon controller, install Fedora10 on it, then put old SATA to the same controller.
The second is to look for some external storage (SATA, USB2 or FW), transfer all the data to this storage, replace nvidia controller with silicon and reinstall Fedora.

Thinking....

mood: ...
music: Cathedral

Отряд Дарвина

Доброе утро, страна! :)

В наступившим году жду уже два киноявления, одно -- новый Ice Age, теперь вот оказалось, что есть ещё один повод ждать лета. Это чудесный морской свин (точнее даже свиньи). Потрясающе нарисованные звери, настурально двигающие носиками (судя по трейлеру), правильных окрасов (камень в огород "голубого" дамбо из Рататуя), порадуют до глубины души любого, кто общался со свинками вживую.
Сюжет, судя по трейлеру, достаточно незатейлив, да и мульт ориентирован на публику более младшего возраста, нежели уже названый "Рататуй", но в этом ли дело? Главное -- звери, посмотреть на 3D морских свинок, пусть даже раскрывающих преступления -- удовольствие само по себе :)

картинки взяты тут, а вот тут можно посмотреть трейлер.
Enjoy! :)

Каникулы, матерь их!

Как и все люди люблю праздники, но ненавижу одиночество в такие дни. Обычная проблема структуирования времени. Что с ней делать в общем-то ясно, главная проблема -- заставить себя что-то с этим делать. Распинать старых (или не очень) друзей, откопать под слоем опилок (шутка) недочитаную книжку, открыть терминал, написать reboot и загрузить win дабы не потерять форму и быть способной ещё навалять кому-нибудь в "героях". В общем все то, на что обычно ненаходится времени даже при наличии желания, сейчас же проблема обратная, отсуствие этого самого желания при наличии времени. o_O
Длинные праздники это беспорно хорошо, но тяжко. За ежедневной рабочей суетой забываешь о себе и разногласиях с собой, нет времени настальгировать, сожалеть о том, что было когда-то (не/) сделано. Сейчас же, когда основным соблазном в жизни осталась банальная человеческая лень, которая может лишь приковывать тело к постели, а разум отправлять в прошлое, будя при этом накопившийся без должной разрядки негатив, открывается огромный простор для самокопания (а с моим везением, от этого самокопания страдаю главным образом не я, а мое ближайшее и единственно-дорогое окружение), начинаешь видеть в людях только плохое, причем не факт, что это плохое существет на деле ... не важно! - важно то, что оно (плохое в смысле) "существует" в моем воображении, становясь настолько реальным, что, не смотря на осозание причин собственного состояния, начинаешь в это верить.

mood: Crazy o_O
music: Пикник "Существо"