let the winter go away

It's gold like in a Hell in MSK this year. I really cant remember such a cold winter when it was -20 -25C for weeks and when it was not possible just to have a walk without fear to get completely cold somewhere during the walk.
In a such long-long sun-free days it's a special pleasure to remember all the past summers and to dream of the coming ones...
I miss green leaves, hot sun, singing birds and insects, I miss walking through blooming trees and taking pictures of the colourful world. If you ever know, how much I hate 'black-and-white' world, I just do not understand it without colours, it's not a part of _my_ Universe...
My ones is different... :)

mood: sleepy
music: Bonnie Tyler

Happy New Year! :)

My dear friends :)

Today is the last day of 2009.
Lets say farewell to all its difficulties leaving in our hearts only sunny and happy moments, no matter what was this year for every of us.
Lets say hello for coming 2010 year. I really hope next year will bring you something very-very special in personal life, in work, in every day and in every moment of time :)
Happy New Year and Merry Christmas to everyone! :)
I love you all :-)

[rat.ru] New life has began

Yeah!
I've finally transferred my beloved rat.ru to a new,payed,dedicated hosting.
Thanks to my friends I've chosen keyweb.de as a hosting provider.
This is already a week, when the site and forum up and running, this is already a week I've stopped old mail server and switched the forum back to sendmail (old school - forever! lol :) ). It's a very strange and somelike nostalgic feeling when you stop old software, that worked for you several years and start another one. I even felt a bit sorry for communigate server while stopping it:) Really good, but too expensive software, heh :)
This is the fist time when I worked with openvz software. I should mention that It's easy and convenient to install and tune it, the only thing the administrator must be aware of is how the kernel manages system resources, cause my greatest problem was "fork: unable to alloc memory" :) According to google, this is one of the most popular openvz issue, openvz manuals even mentions some ways to sort it out, but only thinking and reading additional documentation helps to solve it.
In common, it was too fast and somehow sudden transfer, but I should say It was successful. For the first time in the last half year, my favourite toy works as it should and my users are happy :)

mood: satisfied
music: Мельница "Ветер"

back to past or let me back to support

Not, really, that was the most fascinating time, full of fun, friendship in this company and it's pity that I fully realized this only after years I quitted. I miss all my friends I had when working there.
I see people leaving, I see new faces of people I'll never know, I sincerely happy when I can talk to people I'd been working with, now I even happy to talk to our customers :) I like going upstairs, looking and chatting to the people I worked in support with, joking, smiling, laughing, remembering :) Or do I just need to change something?
Yeah, you know, this is a feeling-in-one-moment. I'm a person who cant work with people anymore, but sometimes I need people around to be happy :) That's why right now I'm preparing training for supporters about linux kernel :-) I used to read trainings when working in support, and this is the only thing i can do now for them and make me remember the past times :). The only thing I feel I need to change now, is that I used just to talk, now I'm going to make audience talk to me, make suggestions, discuss topics. Will try to make fun for me and for them :)

mood: People, where are you?! :)
music: Doro Pecsh "In Freiheit Stribt Mein Herz"

"Botanic Gargen" or remembering of past summer.

A few days ago I've finally realized, that warm summer days are in a deep past, and even a dry and and colourful Autumn will not present us with it's beauty anymore.
Grey days and icy mornings will now lead to early winter.
So lets say farewell to summer of 2009. Sometimes It looked for me difficult and unfair, but in reality it brought real happiness and quiet.
Let me show you one day in Mosow Botanic Garden.
That were several days later after I was taken here for the first time.
I was so impressed by the it's nature, so here are some pics.


Botanic Garden is a very-very large park in the North Part of Moscow. You can spend here days walking along it's long roads and looking around to the old trees and pretty flowers.


The garden is full of small grades, some of them even decorated in it's own style. The below pics are from Japan Garden. Calm and green place, even despite of lots people walking and making noise around :)






music: Metallica "Turn the page"
mood: tired, but good :)

energy vampires

There're some people that make us really furious.
One of them -- make us doing something just for a pity.
They do not ask, no, but they look so poor, so unhappy and stress this so greatly that we do something they want us to do, cause we feel like we just must do this, cause we're happy and successful, in the same time when they're not.
Others -- trying to be our friends - kind and truthful. They know how we feel, they know our past, present and look like real friends. We cant even know that there is something they need from us. They're just waiting for a moment. A moment when they can hurt us especially painful. Making us angry, making us trying to defence something important for us.
This second category similar to the first one, with some difference: they're stronger, they pretend wishing only good, taking an offence when we fight for the privacy they're trying to hurt.
Really hate these people and do my best not to have them around me.
Sometimes it's getting to be a difficult task.

mood: angry
music: aria

Only heaven knows....

Seems we've been to heaven darling
Ah the sad wind blows
But I have lost my way my darling
Tell me how it goes
While the mist is rising darling
Ah the sad wind blows
Tell me how we met my darling
Tell me all you know

Well I am somewhat older darling
Ah the sad wind blows
And you are so much younger darling
That's the way it goes
And we looked so good together
Ah the sad wind blows
Out of all the summer flowers
I had picked the rose

Take me in your arms my darling
While the sad wind blows
Tell me that this pain will leave me
Tell me how it goes
Ah if this pain should ever leave me
Only heaven knows

(music and text by Joan Baez)

mood: empty....
music: Joan Baez

sea stone

Imagine a dark blue sea. Dark as a summer starless night. Deep as an endless black precipice.
Far-far away from sear shore there is a stone constantly washed by waves, it looks partly green, partly brown from the distance. Usually the stone is a place where fat sea birds dry their wings.
I'm not a very good swimmer (just afraid of deep water), but once a day I've finally reached the stone. I came out, that it's actually a group of a rather large stones, with one main peak that's seen from the sea shore.
I climbed to the stone and stood up. Looked around -- in front of me is just a endless water, back is a far earth :) Nice feeling of a unity with a almost wild nature, only shoals of fish and sea gulls are surfing around.
The stone itself should be especially described. It's not actually the stone, that are myriads of shells, one on one mixed up with different colours of seaweeds, the sea world is full of colours and it's a real wonder to see them all and to understand how different this world from the one we live in, how beautiful are all these small fishes, medusas, brits ...
Do you know what I needed to be completely happy? -- You, diving somewhere besides me and waterproof photo-camera (lol) to make pictures of the beauty around :)
So, there is a late hi from sunny and hot Bulgaria :) I lived there for the last two
weeks :)

photo sessions :)

Seems that I haven't updated my photos for a very long time. Will try to fix it.
Here are my very recent photos from Kolomenskoe garden. All pictures are click-able :)

Near the Moscow river:

On the canon:


The canon reminds me a phallic symbol :-D

From another rainy, but warm Moscow late evening. Some very nice place with lightened trees and benches. The quality is not good, cause it was late and rainy. I was completely wet after the photo session :)


mood: good :)
music: "Apocalyptica"

dark future of programming...?

http://www.casttv.com/video/xhmjdw/monotouch-iphone-hello-world-video

music: "Браво"
mood: "confused"